If you walked into my house on any given day, you’d probably hear laughter. There might be arguing over “any and everything”. You would hear someone asking where, “this or that is.” And more than likely you will hear music playing somewhere in the background. Our house is lived in and full of life.

It’s loud.

It’s chaotic,

It is perfectly imperfect.

Tucked inside this chaos is a woman waiting for a heart transplant.

Some days, many actually- I find myself looking around and thinking, “How is this my life?!”

It is so full.

So messy.

Yet so blessed!

There are doctors’ appointments between games and practices. There are prayers being whispered during football games. There are silent tears in the shower- the ones that come just so I can walk out smiling after.

Do you want to know the truth of it all?- The chaos is the gift.

The noise means life. The mess means presence. The overly full calendar means I am still here to show up.

I have come to the realization that I do not want perfect, I want to be present.

This transplant journey has stripped so much unnecessary noise in my mind. What matters now is the simple things: Faith, family, love, and time. Everything else is just background to me now.

If your life feels overwhelming right now, maybe that overwhelming feeling is proof of something beautiful. Maybe the chaos is evidence of love surrounding you.

I have learned and continue to remind myself to hold on to the beauty- even when my heart feels tired.

The best goes on- and so do we!